Hello there. How have you been doing? I hope you have been in one way, or another touched by what you’ve read on here. Well today, I have something quite different from what we are used to.
I titled it the void within. So, some of us changed citizenship a while ago and some of us are just doing so. I just wanted you to know that you are right on schedule, because His time is best and unique to everyone and for everyone. Move with His pace. So… The Void within… what exactly is that like?
Have you ever felt that numbing and heavy feeling of emptiness, such that no matter what you do, it just never seems to go away. It is like a shadow that keeps haunting you and weighing you down and you just can’t get rid of it. That feeling of helplessness where you are at your wits end and all your strength is used up. You are weak and vulnerable with no tangible result as to what you have done. Your life seems very vague, and you are barely surviving, trying to take life one day, one hour, one minute and one second at a time, so you don’t get overwhelmed by all that’s happening around you. Or are you the one who thinks you have everything figured out and things don’t seem to be going so well according to plan and you are seeking desperately for the cracks and flaws in your plans, trying with all your power and might to fix it but it just isn’t working.
Well… you got me here. I have been there and done all those things. Been sad a few times I had to cry myself to sleep. And for me, the most annoying part of all these negative feelings and emotions I felt was that a lot of the times, I didn’t know where they were coming from, or why I was feeling so down. I just was down. We sometimes say a problem shared is half solved. But what about when you don’t even know what the problem is to begin with and you are trying so hard to at least figure it out, but you some way, somehow just get sucked in deeper into that pit. That is absolutely ironical, isn’t it? But as funny and distant as it may seem, it is the experience and life of some people.
Interested in knowing what I did…? I met a lovely someone, who first showed me a mind-blowingly pure and true kind of love. He told me to trust him, and I did, or rather I trained myself to. It was not particularly easy, but I was doing it with His help only. I knew still that I wasn’t perfect, and neither was I ever going to be. But He said these words to me: “You are you, who I made you to be. You are who I made for myself and for my pleasure. You are who I made in my image and in my likeness. You are who, who is made fearfully, wonderfully and most beautifully. You are you, who I have redeemed and saved. The baggage you are carrying is not meant for you. I didn’t create you with it, so it isn’t yours to carry. Come dear one. My most beloved one, come. I see your pain, I see your trouble and it hurts me that you struggle. I am he who gives rest. I am the rest and peace itself. I am the life you seek. Don’t be ashamed to come, I am welcoming. Entrust yourself to me and be confident that I will keep you best. Come love… My arms are wide open. I am waiting.“
That was all I needed to know. I had an identity in him, that was far beyond any title or position. He cared about me and loved me, that was far more comforting than any words or human affirmation I could receive. Who I am in him, who He has made me to be will always be much more than that what I plan for myself. His ways are higher than mine and his thoughts also so I can trust that he knows more than I do. It obviously didn’t happen in a day, but slowly, I was beginning to drop my baggage at his feet, one by one. Those I was very much aware of and those that I wasn’t. I became aware of who I was and strived to live more like that every single day. And just like that, he set me free. I didn’t know exactly when or how even, all I know is that I looked around me and I didn’t find any chains or load weighing me down anymore. I was free. Completely!!!
Dear friend, the person who saved me and said all those things to me is saying the same to you. Come to him. Let Him set you free. Don’t let the world place unbearable weight on you. It may all seem fine now, but nothing is secure outside the one who secures. Hide your life in Him. And you will see, one by one, He will free you of your baggage and set you free for Him. Because, who the son sets free, is free indeed. Come to Him dear one, He is waiting.
It may not be easy, but at the end of the day, you will look back and know within your heart, that everything you had to go through made finding Him much more worth it. Come dearly beloved…COME!!!
Your beloved partner in growth…
xoxo P
